It's been a while since my last entry...
there's not been anything to report really. Just goin along doin nothing special. Yoga has been progressing well. I've set a goal that by the end of this session (10 weeks) I want to be able to bring the inside of my shin to my chest without curving my back...
I know it's a little boring but you'll do almost anything to keep your mind occupied when you have free time.

That red-haired girl I mentioned MUCH earlier is starting to warm up to me a little so I’m thinkin I’m gonna see what she's up to this weekend (if she's not seeing any one so I gotta find that out first).

That's all really. If anything happens i'll let ya know.

Cynical thought:

There’s a very short distance between insanity and genius and it is rarely easy to measure its distance. The only ruler to measure the distance only works after it’s very obvious that the person is one or the other. Many genius people are probably in asylums and many insane people are running our school systems, economies, and governments.

Optimistic thought:

The ruler to measure the distance between genius and insanity is called success.

...
Mood:  bright
It's SO nice today. in the 80's now that it's lunch. I'm really not liking being in side right now.

The date went well. We met at Goose Creek and she dropped off her car there and we took mine. We drove to Dover and had really good conversation on the way there. When we got there she wanted to see The Ring two and I wanted to se Sin City so I asked her if she'd prefer seeing The Ring and she said yes so we bought tickets for the late show at like 10 but it was only 8 so we went to Red Lobster and sat at the bar. She knows the bar tenders there cuz she used to work at the Olive Garden next door. Good conversation with them and they convinced her to go see Sin City instead of The Ring so we traded in our tickets and got there just in time to see the previews. She got up to go to the bathroom 2 times but other than that she enjoyed the movie. And then she and I left and drove back to Goose creek and she got into an odd position with knees on the seat facing the back of the car and gave me a hug and thanked me for a good time. I asked her when she was free again and she said from Thursday to Saturday so I’m gonna call her again today and see if she wants to go and do something this Friday. We'll see.

I've decided to pursue my interest in religion and spirituality and so been reading When Religion Becomes Evil by Charles Kimball and so far it's Really good. To think I was the one in high school who did everything I could to avoid reading anything let alone heavy complicated stuff and here I am reading about a heavy subject and enjoying it. Very strange indeed.

Cynical thought:

Freedom from imposing religion is becoming better. “God: Please save me from your followers.”

Optimistic thought:

Freedom of religion is good. It promotes spiritual diversity, spiritual growth through the merging of religious tradition and ideals, and persecuted religions can find communities in which to worship.

Friday
Mood:  not sure
I'm a little sore from Yoga yesterday and the lab today didn't help either. But i know all i need to do is get home and stretch out before goin out tonight and it'll be good. i called Lauren during the week and we're headed out... Somewhere... There's not much to do around here so i'll have to come up with something. i'm thinkin a movie, dinner, then a bar or just a movie or just a bar. Cant do both movie then bar without food. Did i learn that the hard way with Susan? Oh yes.

I've got to do weekend work this weekend on Sunday so I hope Lauren is free tonight to go out, otherwise i'm gonna be tired goin into work on sunday.

Cynical thought:

No combat ready unit has ever passed inspection.

Optimistic thought:

No inspection ready unit has ever passed combat.

YIPPIE
Mood:  celebratory
It's spring. And for once it actually feels like spring. The sun in shining, animals are coming out of hibernation, kittens are on the way, puppies are getting bigger, and there's a cold front on the way...
Perfect day to be stuck in some lab with no windows.

Cynical thought:

The more crap you put up with, the more crap you are going to get.

Optimistic thought:

Now you know the danger of being in a relationship.

After easter.
Mood:  chillin'
Had a good weekend over all. Got to play video games a lot with my brother. Had a BIG family get-together at the house; so LOTS of leftovers. Met this girl Lauren at an after party Friday night. Short and small with brown hair and brown eyes. GROWL. My friend John said he was trying to "lay his thing down" but he was only going to be here for this weekend and then he'd be gone so I got her number. I might give her a call this weekend.
Shit...
I've got my first weekend work this weekend.
Shit!
Oh well... Looks like I’ll be coming in tired. :-P

Cynical thought:

Have you noticed that all of the media on the Terry Shiver always says for the headline "The fight for Terry Shiver to live." Why do they never say "The fight for the right of Terry Shiver to die." Could it be... The media is actually broadcasting and is on the side of LIFE for a change? WOW!

Optimistic thought:

Hopefully this will bring the issue more out into the open and everyone will get living wills so this bull shit won't happen to any one ells. For the love of GOD let me go if I’m ever in that situation.

Long weekend
Mood:  bright
My brother is coming down this weekend to play in around here with us local yokals. It'll be fun getting him to come out with me to Sheldon's or maybe even Snapy's. There's no one ells to make plans with cuz his girlfriend won't be around. I actually get to hang out with my brother. Wow. Isn't life grand? :-P

Busiest day at work ever and I feel really good about it. I always like working when there's so much to do that there's almost no possible way to get it all done in one day and some how you get it all done. I'm kinda realizing that that's what I wasn’t as far as a work environment and workload. So much to do that it's a challenge to get it all done. I know that's odd coming from me who slacks off in everything he can. Go figure.

Cynical thought:

It's impossible to make anything foolproof, because fools are so ingenious.

Optimistic thought:

The only solution is to kill them all and let God sort it out. As before: YIPPIE! No more ignorant suburbanites.

Yarg
Mood:  irritated
This job is really starting to get on my nerves. I'm supposed to be doing everything I can to do everything right and they also say that any mistakes I make are not my fault for the first couple of months. But every time I make a mistake my supervisor gets curt with me, her jaw clenches, and she starts treating me like I’m a burden to have around.
To be honest I don't think they have the time to have me here, let alone train me. It's frustrating to say the least. They've actually been able to keep me busy the last couple of days, which is amazing. Up until now all the work they've had me doing is odds and ends stuff and picking up menial things that are keeping other people in the lab from concentrating on their specialty. That usually keeps me busy for about 4 hours of the day and most of the time not even that. Then they want to point and shake the finger at me for not doing anything when it seams to me that THERE'S NOTHING TO DO! They've actually taken an interest in training me now and I think that they're realizing how fuckin far behind they've gotten in my training and they're trying to play catch up which is driving both parties INSAIN!

Besides that I wasn't able to play much pool last night because I just got really tired all of a sudden and all I wanted to do is sleep and so I did.

All I want to do now is get to the end of the day so I can get the hell outa here and relieve some stress. GOD DAMN IT!
I just need to have some fun too. Last weekend was a bust. I went up to Baltimore to see my brother and sister. My sister had a one-year anniversary thing with her boyfriend that she'd been planning for a little while and my brother and I had planed to hang out and have some fun this weekend. I was thinking you know go out to a bar after playing some video games and then after I got hammered (cuz he doesn't drink) come back and have him kick my ass playing drunken video games. However, my brother suddenly had plans with his girlfriend so it was hang out at my brother’s apartment and play video games with him until his girl called or came over and then it was play video games with myself until I fell asleep. I got up the next day to find that my brother's girlfriend had made more plans with him then just that night and that I wasn't going to be able to hang out with him Saturday night either. The saying of the day was "You don't have to leave right now. You can stay here as long as you want." No offence but I’m gonna hang out in my brother's apartment all by my self and wait until I fall asleep from utter boredom get up the next morning to drive home and start the weekday disappointed? I don't think so. So as soon as they were getting ready to leave I left and went home so I could actually go out and have some fun and some human conversations with some one while having a good time hanging out.

ok i'm done venting now.

Cynical thought:

Wisdom comes with age. Death comes with age. Therefore, wisdom is dangerous.

Optimistic thought:

Nope that one's true.

another monday
Mood:  not sure
i've struck up a very odd relationship with a girl i've known since high school and i've not seen in quite some time. We've met up at sheldon's a cupple of times and things go great and we have a good time. Nothing happens between us for the most part. The odd thing is i can't tell if she's into me or not and for that to happen to me is very strange indeed. even if there's a slight attraction i usually pick up on it.

Oh well. i'm gonna try to go to the pool league meat today. i'm hoping it'll be something to get into instead of just sitting around doin nothin after work except work out and run.

Thought:

Beauty is skin deap, Fasion is shallower, and ugly goes to the bone.

hum drum
caught up in the hum drum of life in general. It's just one of those days when you can't seem to do anything right...

I feal like hell and I probably look worse.

Fuck it...
It's Friday...
...
...
Yippie?

Cynical thought:

Anything that can go wrong Will go wrong.

Optimistic thought:

Don't worry about it. You know now so just get on with it and get it over with.

Mood:  blue
Topic: *Notice*
I'm not going to be online as much as I usually have been because work is really picking up and I’m going to be in the lab A LOT more often than usual so leave messages and I’d not expect me to get back to you until the end of the day if you do. Sorry.

St. Paty's day
Mood:  lucky
I chose the mood just for the shape. I'm not really feeling lucky and the emotions didn't have a harp. Any way happy St. Patty’s day everyone! Especially those in Ireland, I MISS YOU GUYS! :-( Goin out tonight and playing pool and getting a little tipsy. See if anyone shows up. It should be a good night even if no one does; I'm starting to enjoy having a quiet drink...

I'm getting old.

Assembled a Desk today. I think I beat the company record. It only took me an hour to assemble the hole thing and the next closest person to me it took them 3. I should have taken more time so I didn't have to do more but that's not how I work fortunately other wise I’d not have this job. :-P

Cynical thought:

Two wrongs don't make a right. It usually takes three or four.

Optimistic thought:

Getting people pissed who have wronged is so much fun. :-P

Ha ha ha ha ha ha!
Mood:  caffeinated
I just felt like laughing. I'm feeling caffeinated but I haven't had coffee or tea or anything with caffeine in it for a long time. Very odd.

I actually have something to do at work today other than help other people do their stuff. I'm so excited! Not. :-P

It's Wednesday and I?m gonna have to go to the Yoga in Denton cuz Easton's closed this week. Oh well. I'll be the advanced one in the class, which is a good thing.

Nothing of importance to report really. Playin pool almost every day. Taking care of the puppies. Just ordered 2 books from Amizon.com on religion. (One of my favorite subjects.) And just chillin...

Cynical thought:

An optimist denies the truth.

Optimistic thought:

A cynic ignores the value.

Post-Cynical Optimism:

Neither is right and everyone is more one than the other.

just goin along...
Mood:  not sure
I'm just goin along...
Not doin much at all...
I miss my Irish and Frostburg friends...
I don't have many friends to hang with here. Every time I want to hang they can't and every time they can I?m already engaged in something ells...

Spent the weekend at home with the rents again. My cousin Alison came over to help with out Raz's puppies. (She?s a vet) Raz had 13 7 females 6 males. A good split if you ask me.
We're going to be REALLY busy trying to keep them all fed. But it'll be worth it. They're worth 400 Bucks a pop. Selling 4 should take care of the cost of raising them so that leaves 9 at $400 a pop gives us approximately $3600 profit. I?m gonna get half cuz I?m probably the one who'll do the evening and late night feedings for the ones that aren't getting enough milk from mom.
We'll probably keep one of them for a dog of our own so it'll be nice to have another dog around. Although I?ve always been a cat person myself I like puppies. Who doesn't right?

I?ve still got to send out photo's of people to people from my digital camera but I?ve not gotten the program to get them off of my camera so they're all just sitting in my house on a memory card on a desk. DAMN IT! I wanna send out some of those pix. (For those of you who I have compromising pix of you know you don't have anything to worry about with me.)

I finally beat Tenchu: Fatal Shadows. Good game over all. The graphics in it are old school and so is the game play but it's still a good game.

(Still no response. You can blow up because Now I'm talkin about ya. ;-) That is a good picture by the way.)

Cynical thought:

It takes forever to learn the rules and once you've learned them they change again.

Optimistic thought:

If all the rules stayed the same so would everything ells and there'd never be anything new. That would suck if you ask me.

TGIF
Mood:  celebratory
Happy it's Friday. Yoga yesterday was great. I went to the advanced class. I'm a pretty strong guy and i'm in shape but let me tell you. The things that we were doin would make some of the guys at the gym cry. Hand stands head stands and sholder stands all with perfect posture (which is harder than it sounds) and a bunch of different standing excersizes and stretches that requried more balence then i'm used to. I'm sore from it all. Not a bad sore but a good one... The kind that makes you wanna stretch more. Next week there's no class there so i think i'll go to Yoga in Denton just for kicks and to show off. :-P

Hopefully i'll be going to nations tonight with my brother to go to Buz. If not i'll be trying to find a place to play pool around here. Not a lot els to do really. maybe sherye and mike will come out with me. We'll see.

Cynical thought:

There is too much to do in a life time. You'll never get done doing what it is that you need to do on this earth.

Optimistic thought:

The faster you move, the slower time passes, the longer you live, the more nookie you get. :-D

Today
Mood:  accident prone
Almost broke my leg and gave myself a head injury feeding the animals this morning. I went to stand on a box to dump the food in the horse's trough and the dog had dug out underneath the box trying to get at a cat who had died under there. The box tipped and my foot slipped off onto the ground and then I landed on the box, which tipped it into my leg with all my weight. After that i fell over trying to relieve the pressure on my leg and slammed my head into the side of the stall's wall. It was grasefull as you can imagine. And then when i went to let Boose (our horse) into the pasture she pushed the gate open and ran out into the lawn to start munching grass. Fortunately I was able to sneek up on her by going around on the other side of the fense and corner her near the stable other wise i'da been all morning trying to catch her.

Speaking of the dog, Razel is having puppies soon, which should be fun. It's been a long time since we've had puppies on the farm and Raz is HUGE so we should be getting quite a few. We've already sold 3-4 of them to different people who want purebred Chesapeake Bay retrievers. It's good stuff.

I went to Yoga yesterday and it was good. Impressed everyone apparently including the for-mentioned redhead in the class. I'll be going to the advanced class today. I'm not so sore from yesterday although my leg and head hurt like hell.

More monotonous stuff today at work.
I got to meat the Beekeeper from next door in the insect department. She seems nice but she was in a hurry so I didn't get into a big conversation.

Cynical thought:

Exercise; eat right; die anyway.

Optimistic thought:

At least you know and you'll leave a beautiful corps.

Post-Cynical Optimism:

Having said that the point is not to leave a beautiful corps at the finish line. You should leap over it with (in my case) a beer and a cigarette in one hand and a woman in the other goin "YEEHAW! WHAT A RIDE!!!"

Just chillen today. Going to yoga tonight. I need some stress release from today. Monotonous stuff today.

I'll get my second paycheck Friday. I'm lookin forward to that. I'll finally be able to pay my dad back for the money he lent me a couple of months back.

Not much to report as of yet as far as life in general goes...
Just chillen...

Cynical thought:

There's only one treatment for stupidity: Humiliation. There is no cure.

Optimistic thought:

Stupidity is humiliating.

P.S. I know what you're thinking and no; I'm not referring to any one. look on: http://www.murphys-laws.com/murphy/murphy-EMT.htm

Whoops all around...
Mood:  surprised
This is what a friend wrote in one of their other blogs about my entry on the 7th:

"That's rather presumptuous to assume that I hid my blog because of you...you're more egotistical than I thought...I have nothing to hide from you? besides that, you know the address to the other one anyway. The reason that I did that is because I'm about to get in a shitload of trouble at work because of it. Apparently someone in upper management found out about it and they didn't like some of the things that I had to say about this place? even though everything that I've said is a) my opinion and b) true. So it's going away until I can edit everything negative I've said about work and coworkers.

Sorry Adam, everything really isn't about you.

So was that mean? Did I get my point across? *wave* Hi, I know that you're reading this! Does it seem like I'm worried about offending you??

That really fucking irks me. What surprises me even more is that he actually thinks that I'm going to censor things about what's going on in my life with regards to Brian or whatever... I'm not playing any games like that??.. And what pisses me off too is that he said I didn't think enough of him to inform him of the change? well, gee?? I didn't tell ANYONE that I was pulling it, because I didn't have the TIME to tell them. NONE of my friends knew that I was pulling it or the reasons behind it. For that matter, none of my family knows that I pulled it or the reasons why, either. If I would have thought about it before, I would have hidden it last week when I first heard the rumblings about it. But whatever. *sigh*"

*sigh* right back.

The funny thing is I wasn't even talking about her. I've not checked out that blog that she's talking about for at least a week but now that I?ve checked it out it too has changed and I don't appreciate the assumption that I was talking about her. One of my friends in the Chemistry department in Frostburg has a blog venting about Organic Chemistry and I had been giving them advice.

I shall rephrase the entry.

P.S. Yes that was mean. Yes your point came across loud and clear. Yes I?m reading your blog. (That sounded a lot like a challenge to me. Did you think I was going to ignore a problem till it went away? *smirk*[entry on the 18th of Feb.]) No it doesn?t sound like you?re worried like offending me and thank you for letting me know in such a? public fashion that you?re not interested in what I think?
Oh wait?
You are interested. Otherwise you wouldn?t have responded?
I?m flattered that you read my blog. Keep it up. *wave*

...
Mood:  incredulous
It?s gonna be one of those gray days I think. You know one of those days that just doesn't stick out in any way in your mind...

Went to play some pool at Time Out in Easton yesterday. Played with a black guy by the name of Jack. Jack was Good. He ate me alive in the first 4 rounds and I won on the 5th only because I played Major defense. It was great. I'll probably go back again today just to hammer some out and practice a little bit.

On my way home I saw something in the road so I slowed down thinking it would move...
When I got to it I stopped and saw that it was a possum. He'd already been hit. He had blood dripping from his mouth and his back was crushed and part of his entrails were oozing out of his side and he was still alive. I can't imagine the pain he was in. So I backed up so I could build up speed and I ran over him to kill him. I Hate doing that...
But I would have felt MUCH worse leaving him there.

Nothing to report other than that really...
I?m kinda outa things to day so with out further ado...

Cynical thought:

You always forget what you wanted to say right when you were going to say/do it and it always comes back to you when you when you can't do anything about it and so you forget it again.

Optimistic thought:

At least you know that you're not losing it if you can remember it again.

the weekend
Mood:  on fire
This weekend was great. On Friday I bought myself a pool cue cuz I was tired of shooting with the crooked ones at Snapy's. I went there and played 5 games and lost once. I then got invited to play at Sheldon?s by some of the guys I?d been playing with. They got there before I did and so they had already started a game when I arrived. I put quarters down and played the next game...
That was the last money I spent for the night. I played for the right to play on that table for the next 4 hours and never lost a game. I was On FIRE!
It'll probably never happen again...
Oh well, it was good while it lasted.

Meredith had her b-day on Saturday so I went to Ruby Tuesdays to lunch with her Sherye and Mike. It was good fun and conversation. I got another game for the PS2 called Tenchu: Fatal Shadows. I know I?m a geek. It?s the 4 in a series that started with Tenchu: Stealth Assassins for the first Playstation. They?re a good set of games sneaking around and killing your enemies without being seen. Every time you get a stealth kill there?s a little movie that shows a special kill move for every angel that you can come at an enemy. It?s pretty cool. Not really keen on the boss battles though? the controls and camera angles aren?t very good for combat situations but the rest of the game play makes up for it.

Cynical thought:

Recently one of the people who i've been giving advice to removed the public access to their Blog with out telling me which leads me to one of two conclusions. 1) They don't like me reading about them on their site because there is information that they don't want me to know because it might offend me. 2) They don?t' think enough of me in order to inform me of the change. Awwwwww. It's so cute when people don?t have the balls to tell you what they really think.

Optimistic thought:

At least when that happens you know where you stand.

Grone
Mood:  spacey
I think I?m coming down with something. It started yesterday about midday and I?ve been feeling rundown ever since. Oh well I?m about due for an illness I?ve not had one for a little while and it would make sense that I?d get it now that I?ve got a job. Most of the people that I work with have kids and they get sick, give it to their parents and they give it to their co-workers (i.e. me and the rest.), which in turn get their children sick with what the other children had...
What a vicious cycle disease is.

Didn't do much yesterday just worked, went home and chilled. I wasn't feeling up for much ells. I should start feeling better later today but I can't guarantee that.

Cynical thought:

If there is a God, he's a prankster. He gives man instincts and then just for his own amusement he sets all the rules to the contrary. Using us like Guinn pigs in a universal experiment...
I'm a scientist and I use experimental organisms but they aren't SENTIENT.

Optimistic thought:

We get a choice whether or not to believe. I've chosen and i'm comfortable with my decision.